Puffy eyes

My eyes are puffy now after I cried for the incident.

I realised that all I need to fulfil is forgiveness. I feel myself is truly not enough about forgiveness.

Everyone tends to make mistake, I mean those insignificant types. So, what was so great about to make myself so absolutely furious at someone's behaviour?

Everyone needs someone. I might not be the one to someone. But, couldn't be just all right? So long he or she is perfectly well on his or her own path. So long he or she is safe and healthy. Why should I worry about if he or she is not in the condition that I expected?

If I were to love someone, I need to love him or her unconditionally. I thought, and I've to learn about unconditional love increasingly.

Life isn't short? Why should I too worry about things that beyond human's control?

Peace my mind and everything will be fine...

Good night, everyone...

Wonder

I brought baby to the clinic again this morning. Dr said that it is normal for a person to get lots of phlegm after fever. And again, medicines were given.

Phew! Baby looked better afterwards.

I cried today as I'm so wonder about human beings' behaviour. I do not know whether you encounter a same problem like mine. But surely, my sorrow is only mean to myself.

I feel the pain and ache deep down my heart. It is so real that pull me down like hell. I will tell you when the days come.

I don't feel like I'm a Yoga practitioner when I cried just now as I really cried a lot. As I write down my feelings here, I feel a little release.

Oh Ya, bless me well, okay. I'm not a bad one.

Anxiety

It is almost six days, baby is not well yet. He vomited again this morning and having a running nose after his high fever.

I'm a little anxious now as he didn't take any food with him these days.

He keeps on asking for hugging and comforting and cries easily these days...

Oh yes! I went back to my Yoga class last night. It was so great that I could relax myself mentally and physically. Yahoo...enjoy!

High Fever

Baby cried for the whole night. He was having a high fever. I sponge him with ice-bag, and gave him a 2.5ml of antipyretic every four hours intervals since last night eight o'clock.

He was coming down a bit in temperature after having the antipyretic and sponging, but, he would wake up to cry again when the medicine was about to no effect.

Our last woke up was four o'clock in the morning. I was too tired and fell a sleep after the last fed of antipyretic. I rouse up suddenly from a deep sleep at about seven o'clock in the morning.

Baby was as hot as a "FIREBALL". I couldn't wait and jumped up from the bed. I should bring him to the clinic for a stronger antipyretic and of course to find out the course of having such a fever.

Dr came and started to examine his patient at about 08:10. We were at the queue of seven. Dr said that baby having 39.6 in temperature and had an infection on his throat. Antibiotic was given.

I have to be more be careful next time when I give him french fried and cookies. I do make sure myself give him plenty of water.

I'm Sorry

I felt so sorry about my little baby. He seemed so unwell after the one day tour.

He vomited two times and having fever.

I comforted him down and iced him for a few minutes after his loud-cried. He slept soundly after struggling in my arms, eventually.

I must have neglected him the whole day. I thought. I've forgotten to feed him milk on time and gave him too much biscuit instead. Basically, he has not enough water for today, and perhaps I've put him under the hot sun while he was playing in the playground.

My heart is really pain. I feel thousands sorry about his unwell. It's all my fault that I didn't take good care of him. As a mother, I shouldn't be so careless.

My regret deeply. My baby. Hope you get well after you wake up from your sweet dreams.

And I would like to thanks my hubby and kids for accompanying me for the one day tour too.

They were so patient with my poor attitude along the way, and showing great love from the bottom of their heart.

I'm so touched and great that I have all of you as my love ones.

Thanks a lot!

Excess Fat

I was watching at a programme about burning excess fat on our tummy. The caption caught my attention: Results may very from person to person!

To burn fat, it doesn't seem so easy. I thought. "Determination" should always come first.

I gained lots of fat elsewhere my body to where it should be after gave birth to a baby. I thought, I was quite all right before the baby was born as I looked not much different before and during my pregnancy.

But the idea was totally wrong! I looked very different at the moment when the baby was born. my face remained swollen, my eyes remained puffy and my lips seemed being inflated with air.

Who knew that things were so coincident that dad was having a stroke while I was in the operation room for the baby...so, to keep myself slim was far away at the point of time.

Yip!!! Time flies, everything seems to be a little settled after a year. My baby has grown and my dad is also "quite well" after all.

Only thing is that I'm quite tired and look a little excess...

I've to continue the YOGA to refine myself, mentally and physically. I thought.

Wish myself, good lucky!!

Down

I was really busy before I could post my dairy here.

I just feel exhausted sometimes, when my feelings a bit down.

I just felt like stop, mentally and physically. Somehow, my hands kept on doing, my minds kept on thinking, daily routine kept on going and everybody kept on busying.

It seems like a non-stop for life until the day I need to, I mean, when time is up, I've to lie in the coffin; so by that, do I really mean to leave and stop everything?

It's just that "BUSY" made me crazy. I always remember one thing in life: The earth, the fifth largest planet in the solar system will just keep on rotate on its own axis. The time that it takes to complete one rotation is 23.9 hours, which is one day.

The Earth, besides spinning on its own axis, is also revolving around the sun in an orbit. The time that it takes is 365.25 days in a revolution.

If I have a little conscious about time, I should aware that time couldn't just stop for me personally...

Yip!! Carry on life, carry on busy, carry on whatever and ever.

INTRODUCTION

Do you believe something about horoscope? It is all right if you don't.

Personally, I read about zodiac since I was young. I don't really follow what it says, but I put it as a guide and an encouragement most of the times.

I just happened to read about my horoscope from one of the Zodiac Web sites this afternoon. Of course I'm not quite sure if the summary suit every Capricorns? Somehow, I agreed some of the points that are so true and indeed fit myself.

Here is the extract to share with you about my characteristic.

Short Summary
Capricorns are lucky. They are the ones who look younger as they get older. They are very attractive and neat and once they get over their shyness they are quite aggressive. They can be trusted to keep a secret and are really great in emergencies. Sometimes they are a little bit impulsive but as their intuition is pretty strong, they usually make the right decisions. They're creative, sensitive and patient. On a bad day they can be jealous, selfish and moody. They are very close to their family and are usually the last ones to leave home.

Long Summary
Capricorns are patient, realistic and responsible and they take life seriously. They need security but they may find this difficult to achieve. Many live on a treadmill of work, simply to pay the bills and feed the kids. They will never shun family responsibilities, even caring for distant relatives if this becomes necessary. However, they can play the martyr while doing so. These people hate coarseness, they are easily embarrassed and they hate to annoy anyone. Capricorns believe fervently in keeping the peace in their families. This doesn't mean that they cannot stand up for themselves, indeed they know how to get their own way and they won't be bullied. They are adept at using charm to get around prickly people.
Capricorns are ambitious, hard working, patient and status-conscious and they will work their way steadily towards the top in any organisation. If they run their own businesses, they need a partner with more pizazz to deal with sales and marketing for them while they keep an eye on the books. Their nit-picking habits can infuriate others and some have a tendency to 'know best' and not to listen. These people work at their hobbies with the same kind of dedication that they put into everything else. They are faithful and reliable in relationships and it takes a great deal to make them stray. If a relationship breaks up, they take a long time to get over it. They may marry very early or delay it until middle age when they are less shy. As an earth sign, Capricorns are highly sexed but they need to be in a relationship where they can relax and gain confidence. Their best attribute is their genuine kindness and their wonderfully dry, witty sense of humour.