Wanted to be released!

I wanted to be released from all the anxieties and burdens!!!

Puffy eyes

My eyes are puffy now after I cried for the incident.

I realised that all I need to fulfil is forgiveness. I feel myself is truly not enough about forgiveness.

Everyone tends to make mistake, I mean those insignificant types. So, what was so great about to make myself so absolutely furious at someone's behaviour?

Everyone needs someone. I might not be the one to someone. But, couldn't be just all right? So long he or she is perfectly well on his or her own path. So long he or she is safe and healthy. Why should I worry about if he or she is not in the condition that I expected?

If I were to love someone, I need to love him or her unconditionally. I thought, and I've to learn about unconditional love increasingly.

Life isn't short? Why should I too worry about things that beyond human's control?

Peace my mind and everything will be fine...

Good night, everyone...

Wonder

I brought baby to the clinic again this morning. Dr said that it is normal for a person to get lots of phlegm after fever. And again, medicines were given.

Phew! Baby looked better afterwards.

I cried today as I'm so wonder about human beings' behaviour. I do not know whether you encounter a same problem like mine. But surely, my sorrow is only mean to myself.

I feel the pain and ache deep down my heart. It is so real that pull me down like hell. I will tell you when the days come.

I don't feel like I'm a Yoga practitioner when I cried just now as I really cried a lot. As I write down my feelings here, I feel a little release.

Oh Ya, bless me well, okay. I'm not a bad one.

Anxiety

It is almost six days, baby is not well yet. He vomited again this morning and having a running nose after his high fever.

I'm a little anxious now as he didn't take any food with him these days.

He keeps on asking for hugging and comforting and cries easily these days...

Oh yes! I went back to my Yoga class last night. It was so great that I could relax myself mentally and physically. Yahoo...enjoy!

High Fever

Baby cried for the whole night. He was having a high fever. I sponge him with ice-bag, and gave him a 2.5ml of antipyretic every four hours intervals since last night eight o'clock.

He was coming down a bit in temperature after having the antipyretic and sponging, but, he would wake up to cry again when the medicine was about to no effect.

Our last woke up was four o'clock in the morning. I was too tired and fell a sleep after the last fed of antipyretic. I rouse up suddenly from a deep sleep at about seven o'clock in the morning.

Baby was as hot as a "FIREBALL". I couldn't wait and jumped up from the bed. I should bring him to the clinic for a stronger antipyretic and of course to find out the course of having such a fever.

Dr came and started to examine his patient at about 08:10. We were at the queue of seven. Dr said that baby having 39.6 in temperature and had an infection on his throat. Antibiotic was given.

I have to be more be careful next time when I give him french fried and cookies. I do make sure myself give him plenty of water.

I'm Sorry

I felt so sorry about my little baby. He seemed so unwell after the one day tour.

He vomited two times and having fever.

I comforted him down and iced him for a few minutes after his loud-cried. He slept soundly after struggling in my arms, eventually.

I must have neglected him the whole day. I thought. I've forgotten to feed him milk on time and gave him too much biscuit instead. Basically, he has not enough water for today, and perhaps I've put him under the hot sun while he was playing in the playground.

My heart is really pain. I feel thousands sorry about his unwell. It's all my fault that I didn't take good care of him. As a mother, I shouldn't be so careless.

My regret deeply. My baby. Hope you get well after you wake up from your sweet dreams.

And I would like to thanks my hubby and kids for accompanying me for the one day tour too.

They were so patient with my poor attitude along the way, and showing great love from the bottom of their heart.

I'm so touched and great that I have all of you as my love ones.

Thanks a lot!

Excess Fat

I was watching at a programme about burning excess fat on our tummy. The caption caught my attention: Results may very from person to person!

To burn fat, it doesn't seem so easy. I thought. "Determination" should always come first.

I gained lots of fat elsewhere my body to where it should be after gave birth to a baby. I thought, I was quite all right before the baby was born as I looked not much different before and during my pregnancy.

But the idea was totally wrong! I looked very different at the moment when the baby was born. my face remained swollen, my eyes remained puffy and my lips seemed being inflated with air.

Who knew that things were so coincident that dad was having a stroke while I was in the operation room for the baby...so, to keep myself slim was far away at the point of time.

Yip!!! Time flies, everything seems to be a little settled after a year. My baby has grown and my dad is also "quite well" after all.

Only thing is that I'm quite tired and look a little excess...

I've to continue the YOGA to refine myself, mentally and physically. I thought.

Wish myself, good lucky!!